School Sweet School

Wow, haven't written anything on here in a long time...

This week blows! Officially. I have enough homework to kill an elephant, I have to pay 40 dollars to get my car unlocked, im leaving for home thursday and i really dont know why now.

I dont know why i get so damn delusional. I think things are going real well. Im wrong!

I had 2 great weeks of school, and why does this week have to be soo bad. At least I will get to see my family, its cool that they are looking forward to me coming home. I love knowing that i matter :-). I really miss my dog too. Also my bike needs a good tune up, so Mortel's can have some work.

You ever need advice and the only person you can get the advice from is the person you need the advice about? To get things out in the open, i need advice about Taryn. I dont know if anybody but taryn reads this, if that, but what the heck do i do? Do I try, ever? Does she really have no feeings? Do i talk to her too much, would seeing her this weekend be bad? Should I apologize to her parents for being a dick for the past 3 months and making their daughter cry? Do I tell them how I really feel, so there are no "rumors" about me with them? I really need some closure, or im going to go crazy. And why the hell dont i have closure. I should have known that right after we broke up it wouldnt happen again just from the facts of what happened. DAMMIT.

I hate thinking like this, and it is all because of this shit hole week. Hopefully tomorrow will be a good day, I really need it. Im hoping to have a busy weekend. Maybe ill just go to camp and rest.

Please, somebody, i need someone in my life.